Secular,
	Parisian, urban,  
     Southwestern country hick,
    bullied suburban boy,
dissipated, dried out, 
		hacking lungs
on Turkish tobacco, weed
   whatever,
booze up the wazoo 
not 
    to mention 
		sex up the wazoo
    on the videos.
Of course, there's "blow-back,"
    but how about 
                 just "blow"?
There has to be something
more. Of course, 
	le cause celebre.
Wasted to wanted to 
“Gimme dat gun, bro.”
My religious cause, down 
with the oppressor,
Allons enfants de la Patrie,
    MY Country tis of THEE!!!!
my one Father God, Yahweh
and Allah, homeland, what
land?  One God, three 
names, kill
in the name of any monotheistic
deity you 
      wish; after all 
it’s what you gave up 
     all
	the smokes, booze 
and 
	sex for 
		isn’t it?
Or was it just the 
        anger, ennui,
            rage, malaise?