It’s twenty-two years to the day
of the worst day of his life, the
day his wife of twenty-six years
died that day in a day. He look-
ed at his wife of almost twenty
years, a widow whose husband
died twenty-two years and seven
months ago and he said to her
that the remembrance of that day
is a day of sadness, maybe even
lingering anger given how the
death happened, emptiness, sor-
row not anything like joy, happ-
iness, contentment, hope, plans,
expectations — all the things that
they feel toward each other this
day, this sad day, but this day of
love and hope — love and hope.
I can handle my controlled grief except when the community chorus rehearses (last night again) Autumn Leaves…”the sunburned hands I used to hold.” Whenever I am at a stoplight with a white van of any sort, arm out window, I must look away, especially from large muscled arms. (sigh) They live in us (Lion King)