In an interview, La Carre stated, “If
there are times when I have been
ruthless in my life, and most of us
have been ruthless,” it is as if he
is attributing it to “that chunk of
my life that passed me by, which
is a mother’s love.” The reader,
a sometime follower of La Carre,
felt that John, even as he knew
John to be a nom de plume, which
he used as he felt that they
were now on a first name basis,
had put a finger right in the reader’s
heart hole, not to further the pain
of a dull ache by making it into a
searing pang as a finger nail tearing
along the inside of the left ventricle,
but, by osmosis perhaps, to help the
healing by pointing out that misery
does indeed love company and what
distinguished company. The reader
didn’t feel so alone or so ashamed
of his own episodes of ruthlessness.
He patted his bathrobe in the area
of the chest right by the heart and
felt a certain vindication (no!), or being
understood or, oh, what is the right
word ?, perhaps just forgiven-ness
from one continent to another or
just in the den with his hand gently
on his heart.
Following your directions – I’m here making a comment. And thinking that this blog is a wonderful way to do what William Stafford did – writing one poem every day. A lovely self-imposed deadline and now a way to share it with others.